Personality: Carrion is very, deeply, messed up. He enjoys inflicting pain (mostly of the mental or emotional variety) on others. He knows the way in which people break, and gains amusement from seeing how easily he can do it. He literally lives and breathes his own nightmares, finding in them confirmation of some of his beliefs as well as useful pets with which to hurt others. It's very easy for most people on his world to think of him as what, to most of the world, he is- your typical totally evil villain. But things are, of course, a little more complicated.
Perhaps the three most important things to know about him are these- 1) he hates himself, 2) he hates the world, and 3) he still hopes for something that will maybe prove both himself and the world worthy of something other than hatred, maybe even love.
He knows he's ugly. He knows what he does is cruel. He knows that he's evil, and deserves to be hated. At least a part of him is sure that the reason that his trying to be good failed was because there is something essentially monstrous about him (an impression which Mater Motley no doubt encouraged), and he hates that. At the same time, he's convinced that the world should have given him a better chance, and that the fact it didn't proves there's something essentially monstrous about the world, and it deserves whatever he can give it.
Yet the Carrion of the past isn't entirely dead, as sometimes shows in his philosophical streak. He believes in providence, that everything happens for a reason, that everything serves a purpose. Usually, he believes this purpose is nothing worthwhile, but sometimes he dares to hope that something good can come into his life again. In his more philosophical moods he can be something almost close to kind, doing things like assuring a henchman who he is extremely displeased with that the man is not worthless. It also shows through in his still-abiding appreciation for some things of beauty or determined goodness, whether it's a mechanical bird or a mysterious girl he admires.
But the truth is that Carrion has let himself grow far too twisted, and when something good does come into his life, he isn't able to handle it well. Anything of beauty he finds will end up in a cage. He is obsessive, completely disregarding others in the pursuit of what he wants, even if what he wants is love. He is also prone to violent bouts of temper. When things don't go his way, people tend to get yelled at, slapped around, beaten up, or thrown in a cell for later torment (this is different from when he's bored- that means playing mind games so that people do the above to each other). He is sometimes capable of controlling his temper for the purpose of a larger plan, but it shouldn't be counted on. And should he take something very personally, his anger can be overwhelmingly destructive, as evidenced by the assassination of Boa.
Still, he is extremely intelligent. He is remarkably well-read. He makes sure to conduct experiments and research of all sorts, to be better equipped to carry out his plans. He is skilled at obtaining and managing information- he has spies in quite a few places, and realizes when it's smart to act dumb. He knows that in order to succeed, it can be necessary to make alliances he finds distasteful, and he does so. Carrion is ultimately a big-picture person. Unless he is directly or completely hurt or foiled in pursuit of one of his great obsessions, he can deal with a few idiots or insults.
He maintains something of an artistic bent. He is a great lover of poetry and music. But again, his taste can reveal nihilistic tendencies. His favorite poem, for example, is called "Memories of the World's End." (If someone introduces him to Blake, he will probably love "The Marriage of Heaven and Hell" forever.)
At this point, while a part of him still hopes otherwise, pretty much all Carrion is capable of, whether he is driven by hatred or love, is destruction.
well this time it's because Bella's an enabler
Carrion is very, deeply, messed up. He enjoys inflicting pain (mostly of the mental or emotional variety) on others. He knows the way in which people break, and gains amusement from seeing how easily he can do it. He literally lives and breathes his own nightmares, finding in them confirmation of some of his beliefs as well as useful pets with which to hurt others. It's very easy for most people on his world to think of him as what, to most of the world, he is- your typical totally evil villain. But things are, of course, a little more complicated.
Perhaps the three most important things to know about him are these- 1) he hates himself, 2) he hates the world, and 3) he still hopes for something that will maybe prove both himself and the world worthy of something other than hatred, maybe even love.
He knows he's ugly. He knows what he does is cruel. He knows that he's evil, and deserves to be hated. At least a part of him is sure that the reason that his trying to be good failed was because there is something essentially monstrous about him (an impression which Mater Motley no doubt encouraged), and he hates that. At the same time, he's convinced that the world should have given him a better chance, and that the fact it didn't proves there's something essentially monstrous about the world, and it deserves whatever he can give it.
Yet the Carrion of the past isn't entirely dead, as sometimes shows in his philosophical streak. He believes in providence, that everything happens for a reason, that everything serves a purpose. Usually, he believes this purpose is nothing worthwhile, but sometimes he dares to hope that something good can come into his life again. In his more philosophical moods he can be something almost close to kind, doing things like assuring a henchman who he is extremely displeased with that the man is not worthless. It also shows through in his still-abiding appreciation for some things of beauty or determined goodness, whether it's a mechanical bird or a mysterious girl he admires.
But the truth is that Carrion has let himself grow far too twisted, and when something good does come into his life, he isn't able to handle it well. Anything of beauty he finds will end up in a cage. He is obsessive, completely disregarding others in the pursuit of what he wants, even if what he wants is love. He is also prone to violent bouts of temper. When things don't go his way, people tend to get yelled at, slapped around, beaten up, or thrown in a cell for later torment (this is different from when he's bored- that means playing mind games so that people do the above to each other). He is sometimes capable of controlling his temper for the purpose of a larger plan, but it shouldn't be counted on. And should he take something very personally, his anger can be overwhelmingly destructive, as evidenced by the assassination of Boa.
Still, he is extremely intelligent. He is remarkably well-read. He makes sure to conduct experiments and research of all sorts, to be better equipped to carry out his plans. He is skilled at obtaining and managing information- he has spies in quite a few places, and realizes when it's smart to act dumb. He knows that in order to succeed, it can be necessary to make alliances he finds distasteful, and he does so. Carrion is ultimately a big-picture person. Unless he is directly or completely hurt or foiled in pursuit of one of his great obsessions, he can deal with a few idiots or insults.
He maintains something of an artistic bent. He is a great lover of poetry and music. But again, his taste can reveal nihilistic tendencies. His favorite poem, for example, is called "Memories of the World's End." (If someone introduces him to Blake, he will probably love "The Marriage of Heaven and Hell" forever.)
At this point, while a part of him still hopes otherwise, pretty much all Carrion is capable of, whether he is driven by hatred or love, is destruction.